Attempts at cleaning my room.

It's a saturday night and yes, I am attempting to clean my room.
I'm real nervous about school. I have so many pending "things".

For instance, I still have an independent study research project that has not yet been approved by the IRB. I don't forsee this being a HUGE problem. But...I'm supposed to have my data collected, statistically analyzed, and the thesis completed by April 18th-ish. Um....April's like two seconds away!

The only class I have this semester is a Seminar for my Internship...well...this is Pass or Fail. I do believe I'll pass with no problems. However, I still have a presentation and a pretty big paper/presentation that I have not started yet. That's due April 22nd.

This does not have anything to do with graduation...but...it's still a big stress. The NCE (National certified Counselors Exam) is on April 10th. I have not started to study for that yet. However, I will be attending an informational study session about that next Saturday. I'm sure that'll be fine...If I do fail the first time... I can always take it again...it won't hold me back from graduation but it will hold me back from getting more credentials and letters after my name...such as the NCC (Nationally Certified Counselor). How sweet would that be? Either way...it'll work out how it's supposed to work out.

All in all...I have signed my Audit and printed my awesomely long name how I want it to appear on my $35,000 paper...er...graduate degree. So I know I'm taken care of in that aspect.
However, I have yet to receive an email about "upcoming May 9th graduates...information you NEED to know". Not sure when and how to order/pick up my cap and gown....oh my God, my cape will be awesome this year! I'm wearing that bitch everywhere after I graduate.

I'm pretty sure I'm just making myself more anxious and nervous with everything that's still pending and hanging over my head. I'm sure everything is working out the way it is supposed to right now. It's just...I've never been this anxious about graduation before.
It's been a LONG hardworking few years in Graduate school...it has been worth it...but I'll be relieved when it's over. I'm holding my breath until I actually have my degree in my two hands.

I just have this horrible anxious feeling of impending doom...that things won't work out...at the last minute. I can almost see the disaster. I think it's normal though...if I went to see a therapist now...I might be diagnosed with "Panic Disorder NOS" because of an external, anxiety producing, perceived threat.

I will be fine.
Deep Breaths.